Sunday, January 3, 2016


We are now into our third day of this new year. A year that I wasn't supposed to be here for. I have spent the past few weeks reflecting on 2015 and all that happened. It has been a scary time. By far the scariest time of my life. It has been hard and a very emotional time for me. I went from being optimistic that things will work out after my mastectomy to the devastating blow that the cancer is already back again...this time in the lungs. Then, being told I probably have only 4 to 6 months to live...I probably wouldn't be here for the holidays. Folks, I don't care who you are or how tough you think you are, those words are hard to deal with. Thankfully, I was a fit for a clinical trial in San Antonio and so far it is shrinking the cancer in my lungs and it has not spread anywhere else. For that, the CTRC and Dr. K and her staff, I am so grateful! This study has been such a blessing in my life. I try to stay positive and think that it will completely eliminate the cancer in my body but I have to be realistic, too, and realize that may not happen. It may only extend my life a few weeks or months. With that constantly hanging over my head, I must cherish every moment of every day that I do get to be here during 2016. I guess everyone should really be doing that. None of us know when our time here will be over. A sudden illness. A stroke. A heart attack. An accident. Anyone one of us could be gone in the blink of an eye. Spend time with your family and friends. Do things that you have always dreamed of doing. Make wonderful memories with those close to you because some know not when...a memory is all you will be to them. Love you!

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